Hi SS,
Emptiness seems to be the nature of some spirituality, so don't feel like you're missing a lot.
But in that case, surely the emptiness would still feel spiritual? I guess being brought up "in the truth" (sic) meant it was more an intellectual than spiritual exercise when I got baptised, even though my dedication was sincerely made, albeit that I felt under pressure that it was expected of me. And in the years since then, life's been too hectic to stop and think, or at least when I did, any such disquieting thoughts were quickly pushed aside. But now, thinking about things more, I don't feel I've ever had a personal relationship with God, even though I would like to...
Unless you are specially gifted, you need an altered mind state to explore this area.
That's the point of my original question. It seems that those who feel they are 'born again' have this intense spiritual experience without any such aids. This, in itself, is a confirmation to them of their Christianity. As I have no such feelings, is it still possible to be a 'proper' Christian without being 'born again'?
Drugs can also help, but they are two edged, so go w the former.
I'm not really into these! As an aside, I was searching the web for information on being 'born again' and came across this interesting site, for an unexpected twist on the subject: http://www.angelfire.com/pa/greywlf/why.html
It's fascinating how this anti-Born Again site has many familiar undertones to anyone used to reading anti-JW sites!
BTW, watch out for aguest and her ranting. She hears voices and stuff, but is somewhat confused.
I'll take this advice in the spirit with which I'm sure it was given.
Ps, eckhart tolle recommends a meditation that is focused on emptiness. It could be the emptiness in a room, the sky, or space. He claims that 'god' is in the emptiness, and so focusing on it could put on in touch. I haven't tried this, but it sounds workable and harmless.
I'll look into it. Thanks. Ken